A discussion this morning of being shaken up and feeling unsettled...do you feel like you are being shaken up with dirt or with glitter? I think God is shaking off some of the dirt and sprinkling on the glitter with me. I don't think that I have enough words to explain the way, the stress, the exhaustion, the excitement my head is feeling lately. In parts it is so exhilarating that my life is moving up and down and round turns relentlessly and it is all happening so fast it should be impossible to stay still and I do love being this busy. The only thing is I am standing still and all these amazing things are passing me by, preparing for marriage whilst I am finishing a degree and doing neither well or at all, it seems especially difficult to pick up a book without falling asleep within is pages, it's even more difficult lately to pick up a bible and read about good things, encouraging things. I actually had to google a bible verse yesterday because I just didn't have time to look it up, but it felt so heavily pressed in my heart.
Well my heart, that was my question, must I believe and trust with my head and my heart, because my heart knows things and feels things that my head won't stay still long enough to listen to and believe. Thankfully the verse reads "Trust in the LORD with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding;" Proverbs 3:5
How good it is to know that'my own understanding' is the rubbish in my head. I am so very comfortable with not leaning upon that! Isn't it strange that even when you're running so very fast, God manages to keep up and supply you with encouragement, love and everything you didn't know you needed.
I have been feeling that I should be the girl that feels comfortable in the most stressful situations and I am even beginning to get anxious because I am distressed that I am an anxious and stressed person, but you know what I can burst into tears for any reason and feel shattered all week because I have such an assurance in Him, He has me, He knows which house we're to buy, which town we are to live in and He most likely he's made me to be easily stressed at this time so that I learn I am not able to do this all myself and today, I am not stressed and I am doing my work, and I am excited about my future and my life, because it's in His hands and His hands work incredible things. :) feel encouraged my friends for He loves us so so much! x
